2/16/09 - Still loving it here in St. Louis, the people here are so nice and I really appreciate that. Well I just wanted to let everyone know cause I have gotten alot of emails about putting video on my site of MacAlpine and Crimson Glory. I have some of that stuff packed away and will try soon to get some of the material active soon.

12/22/08 - Well things are going well here in St. Louis, people have emailed me asking how I like the climate change from AZ, well to be honest, I like it alot. I won't deny that it is pretty cold but I am origionally an east coast guy and it reminds me alot of the Balt/Washington area, so I am digging it. I have also been asked why there isn't anything on my site or youtube of Mannekin video wise? well that might change soon. I hope everyone has a safe X-mas & New Year!!!

12/2/08 - Finally in St. Louis and I am digging it thus far...people have been emailing me and asking why I left beautiful AZ, well it is simple...I have been living there for a long time and I wanted a change and that is what I got. Of course it is cold here and it is what it is and it actually feels like the holidays. We will visit AZ often because I still own a home there so I will need to get back to it for some time or another. Anyway I hope everyone had a good thanksgiving and I will write again soon.

10/10/08 - Well it is official, I am leaving the Arizona after almost 20 years here. My wife and I are moving to St. Louis. Why St. Louis you ask...well my wife is a midwestern girl and she has never liked it here. She has an amazing job that she loves and we just felt it was time for a change. This area has turned into LA for me, the people aren't nice anymore. It is always "what can you do for me attitude" that simply drives me insane. It is also going to make it easier to visit our families because we will be closer. It will also be nice to have 4 seasons for a change. The people in St. Louis are so nice. I have been going out there at least once a month for the past 10 months and I am already pretty comfortable with the area. Don't get me wrong, I will miss Arizona, I have always love it here since the first time a came through with Mannekin in 84...but it is time for a change. Who knows, maybe we won't stay in St. Louis forever. I am a beach person so one day I want to live near the ocean. On another note, I have started to sing again and I am enjoying it. For awhile I thought I didn't want to sing again but things in my life have changed and I look forward to belting it out. I hope everyone has a great Halloween, it is my favorite holiday of the year!

9/11/08 - Again, I just got back from Baltimore and St. Louis. Unfortunately I was in Baltimore to attend another funeral. One of my best friends ever died, her name was Carolyn, I had written about her in my previous entry.  She was battling cancer but passed away from heart failure. She was just an amazing person, she always had time to talk to me and helped me when I was going through some pretty tough times. I sang at the funeral and I have to admit, it was difficult. Of course all of the memories of losing my mother and losing one of my best friends was pretty overwhelming but I think Carolyn would have wanted me to do it and I was honored to sing for her and her family! I've said it once, I've said it a million times...cancer touches everyone's life somehow or another and it sucks! I will be soon adding something to my "memory page" for Carolyn.

7/14/08 - Well I just spent 11 great days with my family and friends. I can't begin to tell you how nice it is and how much I value being with family, I never take it for granted anymore. My wife and I spent several days in the Balt/Washington area for the 4 of July and loved every minute of it. I got to see people that I haven't seen in years including an old buddy of mine that I haven't seen in over 20 something years! My father is doing well and hanging in there and still the smartest guy I know. I went to go visit my friend in a Maryland hospital who is battling cancer. She was in good spirits and trying to remain positive. She is going through all the necessary treatments and unfortunately suffering some of the side effects that come with the treatments.She is and always will be one of the most dearest and best friend I have ever have. Again Cancer touches everyone somehow...someway and when I was in that hospital visiting, all the days and nights of being at my mom's bedside came flowing back in abundance. I say it again, don't be afraid to tell someone that you love them and put away your petty differences cause I would give anything in this world to have my mother nagging me! I pray for my friend everyday and even though you don't know her, can you find time to say a prayer for her as well. Thanks for reading and God Bless

6/29/08 - Getting ready to go back to the east coast to see my family and celebrate my dad's birthday. His B-day is on July 3rd and like any little dumb kid, I believed my dad when he told me that people celebrate July 4th because it was his birthday...duh. Anyway celebrating July 4th in Washington DC down at the Washington Monument doesn't suck. I been to alot of fireworks displays but they are nothing like the ones in DC. Pam is going to enjoy it cause she has never been to Washington for the 4th of July. I really look forward to being with my father cause I value the time I share with him. He is the smartest man I know and let me tell you he is not shy on letting you know that. My father started work at Langley in Virginia working for NASA before it was even called NASA. I use to ask my dad when I was a kid what he did and he would just mumble knowing I wouldn't have a clue. I really didn't put it together until later in life that he was a Rocket Scientist. I thought that was humorous cause the joke in life is "she is no rock scientist" but my dad is! Wow. Well I am babbling now so I need to stop writing. Happy safe 4th

6/17/08 - I couldn't believe that it has been close to 6 months since I have written in my diary...God I'm a slacker but things in my life have been pretty good. My life with my new wife, Pam is amazing! She is the best thing that has ever happened to me. She loves me for me and that is saying something considering I'm not the cream of the crop but I'm not complaining whatsoever!. Pam and I just got off of our 3rd cruise together and it was so relaxing, lord knows we needed it especially her cause with her new job she has been putting a tremendous amount of hours in. Ok, let me start by saying that it has also been a emotional year for me as well. Earlier this year, my old bandmate and close friend from Mannekin, Tommy lost his mother to cancer and she was one of the sweetest ladies you would ever want to meet. I was fortunate to spend the last 2 1/2 years of my mothers life with her living with me and I thank God for that!! Tommy came to my mom's funeral and immediately after the funeral moved from Texas back to Maryland to be close to his mom. A decision he knows is a blessing from God cause he was able to be with his mom for her last remaining years. I am very happy for him that he got the same blessing I did and that was to say goodbye to the most important person in our lives. Again alot of people don't get that chance. I flew back to the east coast for her funeral and I was very happy to be able to be there for my friend! Another hit came recently when I was notified about an old roadie/lightman for Mannekin who fell to his death doing a gig in Mississippi. His name was Angus and he worked for us for several years. Angus was a guy who took alot of pride in his work cause our light show was large and he would set the whole thing by himself and it was amazing. Even though I haven't seen or spoken to Angus in years, it still grabs at your heart to hear someone you know get taken away so young. While on the cruise, I was not able to keep in touch with what was going on in the states cause I was out of phone range but when I got back, I had a text saying that a friend of mine was dead, his name was Jimmy but much to my dismay it turned out that not only was Jimmy dead but another friend of mine was to and his name was Kimbo. They were found dead 80 miles north of Vegas with gunshot wounds. I just couldn't believe it! My first reaction was there was foulplay but as the investigation has gone on, it looked like a murder-suicide. What a hard thing to swallow, lord knows we all have our problems and I have been there but to actually know someone that you worked with, had at your house for Thanksgiving and now be forever gone, it is a huge reality slap in the face. Whatever my 2 friends were suffering from, I sure hope they are not suffering anymore! Last but not least...I have a close dear friend of mine who is suffering from cancer and she is battling for her life. She is trying to remain positive and I am praying and thinking about her everyday!! As of right now that is all I want to say about that but will try to write more later when I know more. My test of faith is tested everyday but I have to remember, this is life and I have to thankful for the good things in my life that I have had and still have. Again, don't take life for granted, live it and love it, and don't forget about the people who you love cause you never know. God Bless

1/20/08 - Happy New Year everyone, now that the holidays are far behind my travel have not ended, My wife's new job takes her and I out of town alot so we keep pretty busy. We now have a summer home and a winter home...not bad huh. Anyway I have gotten alot of emails asking me if I am going to get back to singing and to be honest I don't think so. I really don't miss singing to much and I don't really know why. I think I just dont care for the type of music out there and I am certainly not willing to get out there and kiss ass. My life with my new wife has been a blessing and I am not interested in leaving her for long periods of time. Some of the emails I have gotten is people asking me to put the "Erotic Liquid Culture" music on ITumes. I really haven't thought about it but I might do that in the future. It's an old cd but not many have heard it and people who have say they think its a shame that no one can get there hands on it....we'll see. One last thing, a personal note to an old friend, Hey Steve J. I tried to contact you and your email and phone no. do not work so if you would like to chat, give me an email.  God Bless to all of you and have a wonderful year.

12/3/07 - For some reason or another it seems to me that the only time lately I have written in my diary is when something emotional or tragic happens and for me being a huge Redskin fan and the death of Sean Taylor is what has motivated me to write here again. I just got finish watching the funeral and obviously it brings back so many memories of my mothers passing. Taylor was probably my favorite player on the team so I have been watching anything and everything about him since his shooting. Most looked at Sean a certain way and most judge a book by it's cover and lord knows I have had my fair share of scrutiny so I can relate. Anyway, I just feel compelled to say that especially since the holidays are here, don't hesitate to tell family members and friends how much you appreciate and love them because you never know what life has around the corner for you. Embrace being with family and friends. I do hope and wish everyone a safe and wonderful holiday!

11/19/07 - I know I haven't written here in a while but I have been so busy working and traveling with Pam. Her job is taking her out of town every week so I go with her alot otherwise we would never see each other. Anyway, the reason I am writing today is, it is 3 years to the day that my mother passed away. I went to the cemetary and spent some time out there. I went by myself...Pam really wanted to be there with me but unfortunately her job took her out of town again. She feels really bad that she wasn't there with me but I do understand why she couldn't make it. I took a chair out to the cemetary and I just sat there and reflected on all the wonderful times I had with my mom. People say it gets easier as time goes on but to be honest, I don't think it would be if I didn't have Pamela in my life. There was a time that I wasn't doing well emotionally and I really thought about checking out. But over time I realized how blessed I was that I got to spend the last 2 1/2 years of my mom's life together while she lived with me! I also realized how selfish my thinking was. Not long after I got my head straight, Pam came into my life and well, the rest is history. I believe everything happens for a reason. Sorry that this entry might be a little heavy but this is my way to vent and I appreciate the people who take the time to wanna read this.

9/20/07 - After 12 days of being married, I don't feel any different because we have been together for a little while but I will say that I have found the most amazing woman I have ever met in my life and by the way, I am no spring chicken, I have been around and Pam is without a doubt one of a kind! I am a lucky man to call her my wife! I have found a wonderful woman to grow old with. This is more than what I can say for most. I know I sound like a chick flick so I will end with that.

9/17/07 - Just wanted to get back to those who were interested, Pam & I tied the knot on the 8th of September and it was amazing! When she walked into the church, I said "Oh Wow" and got pretty emotional. She looked absolutely stunning, it was more than I expected. The ceremony was quick, just the way most people like to see them. We did not want a long and dragged out wedding but I will say this, Pam & I partied like rock stars for almost 2 days after with friends who attended. It took us a couple of days to recover. Anyway, it was great having our family and friends there. At the reception, we got up and spoke to everyone. Pam got so emotional that she forgot everything she wanted to say so I had to run with it. Obviously we thanked everyone for coming and I got to say how much I thanked God for letting my father be with us! But most of all, I got to share with everyone that there were 2 people who had left us a few years ago that we would have givin' anything to be there and that was Pam's grandmother, who pretty much raised her and of course my mother who passed away in 04'. At the alter, Pam had a picture of her grandmother and my mother in a frame, so I know in my heart they were there with us! Last but not least, I want everyone to know how much work Pam put into this to make this wedding as beautiful as can be. I'm not going to lie to you, she did almost everything and it was amazing to say the least! She is absolutely the best thing that ever happened to me and I am a very lucky man indeed! I have included the link so you can watch the wedding on the internet. When you get to the site, look for Chapel Webcam, Go to September 8th, type in my legal last name "VanLandingham". Pam's maiden last name "Lipski" and the wedding should pop right up. The video will be available for anyone to view up to October 8th 2007. Again I would like to thank everyone who made it to Vegas, we really do appreciate it.
www.littlechurchlv.com

9/4/07 - Well folks, Pam and I are less than 4 days away from doing the ring toss and we can't wait, to be honest things have been so hectic that we really can't wait until it is all over to get back to some kind of normal lifestyle. We are so looking forward to having family and friends there. The wedding went from an attendance of 25 to 35 to 70. Wow can you say bankrupt cause we are paying for everyone to eat. Also I know of at least 10 other people coming but we are not feeding them cause they didn't get back to us in time. We are so glad that my father will be there considering he has had 3 strokes and doesn't get around very well, I just thank God that he is still in our lives to celebrate this wonderful day of ours! Everyone has asked Pam & I what we are doing for our honeymoon and we tell them that we travel so much as it is, that we wanted to do something different. Pam's nephew Joe took it upon himself to make that different happen. We wanted to go to Green Bay, Wis. to watch Pam's Packer's play so we decided to go see my Redskin's beat the Packer's in October. Joe got us tickets and hottub suites in hopping Green Bay, Wis. The exciting thing about this for me is that I get to go to legendary Lambeau Field...Nice! Last but not least, after the wedding I will be posting a link to view our wedding ceremony...not the consemation thank you very much but the actual ceremony itself. 

5/7/07 - As of September 8th, I am officially off the bachelor market because I am marrying a wonderful woman and her name is Pamela. I have been single for 6 years and thought that I would never get married again but she has swept me off my feet and I know this time she is the one. The wedding was going to be small but has turned out to be pretty big. I just wish that my mother could be there for this but as most of you know cancer took her away from me in 04'. I know that my mother would approve of Pam cause I know what my mom wanted for me. We are hoping that due to my fathers health that he will be there for the wedding...we are hoping and praying he will make it

2/15/07 - I know that it has been a long time since I have written in my diary, so I just want to say thank you to everyone from all over the country who has signed my guestbook and said some really nice things. Your comments had come at a really good time for me when I needed them most. I really really do appreciate it !

11/27/06 - Just got back from Las Vegas, stayed at the Red Rock Hotel. For those who haven't heard of this hotel, this place is unbelievable. It is far from the strip but they have a free shuttle from the airport to the hotel and visa versa. The rooms are as nice as you can get for a normal room price. We went and checked out Ann Margret in concert...yep I admit it, I am a Ann Margret fan, she banged Elvis and Elvis was my hero. Her show is very old school Vegas and I like that a lot, what a career she has had. I know that it is not Celine Dion and yes Celine is a great singer but for some reason I would like to punch her in the face so give me Ann Margret anytime.

11/19/06 - It has been 2 years to the day that my mom passed away, people say it is supposed to get easier but I find that not to be the case here. I do know that she is in a better place so that gives me comfort. I have had some really good things happen in my life over the past few months and I know that I haven't written anything about them but they haven't been music related so I just haven't kept up with the Diary part of my site. I actually thought about removing this part of my site but I have been getting emails from people asking why I have let my site go a little, so here is my effort to getting it back up to speed. To be honest with everyone...my music career is really nothing to write home about right now, I feel that it is starting to wind down for me, it's hard to admit but unless something comes along worth while, I think this may be it for me. People ask me who I would like to sing for and obviously Journey is the first I would like to do and than I would love to sing for Toto. Last but not least if my old buddy Jerry from Alice In Chains would have asked me to sing, I would have been all over that one.

11/10/06 - I got a chance to go and see one of my favorite comedians this week. I saw Robert Schimmel at the improve and of course funnier than ever. At the end of his show, he did something a bit unusual that I really appreciated. He showed a slide show of himself at probably one of his lowest points of his life. He was diagnosed with cancer and he showed a time line of his chemo treatments. He looked worse and worse every picture but he was trying to make a point of how he has been in re-mission for several years now and to never give up. It was a bit of ironic because this was the same time that my mother died and I got a chance to talk to him about it. You know the first time I get to meet my favorite comedian, I talked to him about life and death. He shared with me about his 11 year old son dying of brain cancer which he had me on the borderline of tears. November will always be a tough month for me for the obvious but for some soms reason or another, Robert made my month a bit easier. Later that evening, I went bar hopping with the owner of the improv and he told me that I made an impression on Robert...I never expected that.

2/6/06 - I'm in Las Vegas for the Super Bowl with friends and getting ready to head back to Phx. We went to a super bowl party at the Mandalay Bay in the Rum Jungle. Everything was catered and drinks were free. While there I got an opportunity to chat with Charles Barkley, I got to tell him something that I haven't had a chance to say before. I told him about my mother passing away from cancer and she asked me a few days before she died to tell him how much she appreciated him and how much she loved him on TNT. Basketball was my mom's favorite sport, she would watch any game no matter who it was playing. Charles was very cordial and sincere because I didn't walk up to him and ask him for an autograph or a picture like everyone else was doing. He thanked me and said that was one of the nicest compliments he has gotten in awhile and said he was very sorry for my loss. You know I have been in the entertainment industry for a long time and you run into so my unpleasant people in this business but the conversation I had with Charles was very fulfilling and I managed to take another step toward closure with my mom. Thank you Charles!

1/25/06 - Happy New Year! Sorry I haven't written in awhile, been pretty busy so far this year working alot. I don't know if anyone knew that I also DJ in a club here in Arizona, it keeps me up on everything that is knew...some good and some bad. The club that I work at is going to shoot a pilot for a reality show and yes I will be in it. The producers of American Casino are going to be following us around with they're film crew and watching our every move. I won't get into the details about what the show is about but if everything goes well, I will let you guys know more later. They start taping the 2nd week of Feb. Obviously it's not a done deal with whether or not it will air but it comes down to how the pilot turns out. I will say this, it is never a dull moment where I work.

12/27/05 - I hope that everyone had a nice christmas, mine was nice especially since I got to spend it with my family. Some of you know that my father has had alot of health problems but I am happy to say he is kicking right along nicely! Being able to be with my father is something that I don't take for granted considering that I don't have my Mom with me anymore. I have said it once and I will say it again, go out of your way for your family because you never know what the future has in store. Enjoy the little things not just the big things and tell your family once in a while how much you care about them. I'm not saying live your life like it's your last day, all I'm saying is don't take it for granted. On another note, I got to go to the Redskin / Giant game last Saturday and I am happy to say the Skins beat up on them. I went to the game with one of my old best friends and bandmate from Mannekin...Tommy. He and I went out the night before and ended up on stage in Baltimore jamming with a band who were old Mannekin fans and some really nice guys I might add. Tommy and I had a long heart to heart talk about our mother's and he was there when I buried my mom. Tommy took that pretty hard because he was close to my mother. Soon after that he packed up his stuff in Texas and moved back to Maryland to be close to his mom. I think that was one of the best things he could ever do! Once again, not taking anything for granted. Well I hope that everyone has a nice New Years and I will talk to you next year. Please be safe!

12/17/05 - Last night I got to go and see one of my favorite bands of all time...Kix. I am in Maryland and Kix was doing a reunion show. I have always looked up to this band, Kix is probably the best band to ever come out of this area. If you have never seen Kix, they are one of the greatest live bands you will ever see. Stevie is without a doubt one of the best frontmen ever. He has been such an influence on me and he still is after all these years. He sounded and look great...I don't think he has aged a day. I was lilke a little kid all over again back in the days of sneaking into the Bayou in Georgetown before I was of age and watching these guys. Mannekin was alot like Kix, we thought that if we just kept playing and playing anywhere and breaking new markets that we could not be denied. Well like Steve said one time, "I have no regrets, we did what we had to do to try to make it" and although Mannekin didn't quite make it to the level Kix did, we busted our ass and I would not take anything back. Thanks for all the memories guys.

12/11/05 - Been working alot, I am in Vegas at the Luxor until Wednesday than I fly back to Arizona for 1 day than fly to Virginia/Maryland for Christmas. I love being in that area for the holidays, it is beautiful up there. I am flying to Miami, Fl. on the 29th for a couple of days than up to Tampa for New Years. I am going to catch Styx in Orlando for New Years. Finally fly back to AZ on the 4th. So if I don't speak with ya again, have a safe holiday and I will talk to you next year. I will write again if something happens worth writing about.

11/19/05 - It has been 1 year to the day that my mother passed away obviously a sad day for me and my family. My stepfather and I went to the cemetary and put out some flowers and I put out a large glass container with water half way filled in it. I lit a candle and floated it. I spent a little time running over in my head the last few days she was with us and it's like a bad movie that I wished I never saw. Whenver I go to the cemetary, I always call my brother who lives in Tampa, Fl. I feel since he can't be there as often as I am, I like to make him feel like he is there with me and it makes me feel better. A few hours later, a buddy and I were on a plane to Las Vegas to see Audioslave and Staind and other bands. My old friend and manager Mark is I believe production manager for Staind and he invited us up for the show. This was the first time I saw Audioslave and they were really good. It took Chris Cornell a few songs to get warmed up....lord knows I have been there but about around the 4th song he seemed to kick it into gear and he was Chris we all love to hear. When I was in Crimson Glory we had the opportunity to play with them in LA and he was amazing than. He has always been one of my favorites. Also got a chance to see Stryper at the House Of Blues. The last time I saw those guys was when I was still with Mannekin. I met Michael Sweet and he and I talked shop for awhile. We kept in touch by phone for awhile but ultimately lost contact. I wanted to say hello after the Vegas show but the opportunity didn't arise.

11/12/05 - I know it has been a while since I have wrote in my diary but I have been busy with things and haven't really had time. I just wanted to thank everyone for writing to me and and saying all the nice things about my Mom's part of my site. It will be a year since she has past on the 19th of this month and I know it is going to be a tough day for me. I do hope that if any of you out there are having problems with a loved one, like not getting along etc....well figure it out and get it resolved because one thing is for sure, one of these days they will be gone and whatever the problem was will seem meaningless. I remember calling my brother after my Mom & I would get into an argument and I would complain to him how she would nag me. well I can tell you I would give my front seat in hell right now to have her nag me. So work it out!!! I would also like to say thank you to all the people who have emailed me and spoke of the days of Mannekin and how much you enjoyed seeing us. I do miss those days alot!

10/8/05 - I am somewhere in North Carolina for a family reunion...somewhere in a place where I think they just discovered electricity. It is so nice to see family that I haven't seen in years. Unfortunately it reminds me of my mother and how much I miss her, The reunion consist of family from my Dad's side but I found myself thinking about my mom alot. I thought it was suppose to get easier as time goes on but I have to say it is not for me! I feel lost without her. I would give anything to have her back, she always told me in a joking way that someday I would miss her nagging and lord knows she was absolutely, positively right!!!

9/29/05 - I am in Miami, Fl. taking a break from work...I feel like a bum but someone has got to do it. I am staying in the Marriott at Doral Resort and I have been here since Sunday. I have been going to the beach everyday and I am going to play golf on the infamous Blue Monster course here at Doral today. Last time I was here I couldn't play because the were replacing the greens. The weather has been perfect but it rained this morning, good thing I had a later tee time. On Sunday I am flying to Tampa to visit my brother and family and I am going to look at property...need to make more investments. I will probably see my old bandmate DJ from Mannekin, he lives in Tampa and the last time I was there we got to hang out and watch the Redskins finally beat the Cowboys!!! Well I am going to go and chase the little white ball around, I hope I can find it.

9/23/05 - Tonight I went to a show here in Phoenix which is a spin-off of "Whose Line Is It Anyway" I have a childhood friend...Chip Esten who was one of the rotating regulars on the show. He and I have kept in touch for all these years streching back to 5th or 6th grade. We used to have so much fun and not a care in the world back then. He put my buddy Tony and I on the guest list to see the show and of course it is some of the funniest stuff you could ever imagine. I am so proud of Chip, he has had much success with the improve biz and yet still reamains down to earth unlike some of my other friends who have made it in the entertainment industry. I added some pictures to my gallery of this night.

9/21/05 - Well it is official, several of the guys from Sylence have quit the band including me. It just seemed there were to many variables that seemed to cloud the bands direction. Now I realize we were just a cover band and that is all it was ever gonna be but everyone had a certain direction they wanted to go and we just couldn't get on the same page. It was fun while it lasted.

9/17/05 - I am in Tampa, Florida, I am here to do an acoustic set with Erotic Liquid Culture but unfortunately, Ravi, the drummer for ELC mother-in-law had a stroke a few hours before the show and we had to cancel. Things like this make a show seem so meaningless and I do hope that she is doing well. I met her for the first time last night and she was dancing and playing with the kids and full of life and next thing you know...life can change so fast. My best goes out to him and his family. Hopefully we can get together again soon and start doing more shows.

9/2/05 - I just wanted to express my thoughts about the disaster in New Orleans from Hurricane Katrina. I feel aweful for all of those people down there who had so much taken away from them, it must be devastating! When I look at my problems before me, they seem so trivial. So I have dug into my pocket and have sent a donation to www.redcross.org Please find it in your heart to give...it just takes a little from everyone!

8/31/05 - We unfortunately had to cancel our Sylence show at O'Kelly's due to illness. Our bass player Doug had injured his back and from what I understand, it was pretty bad. He had x-rays done but those came back negative and I guess a MRI is next. For whatever reason it must have been bad because knowing Doug he wouldn't cancel a show unless it was pretty serious. We got some emails from people who were not to happy that we cancelled the day before but Doug was really trying to see if he could pull it off but he told me later that when he stands a short period of time, his legs go numb...that doesn't sound good me. So for all the people who were pissed off...I think that as much as we appreciate your dismay about the cancellation, I think that we did what we had to do. We don't even know what is going to happen to our future shows at this time. Kraig & I had a 3-way phone call to Doug and he was still in a great amount of pain. I offered to come over his house to give him a sponge bath to make him feel better but he respectfully declined. I wonder why! I was crushed. If you believe that one I will tell you another. Doug, suck it up and get better!!!

7/31/05 - Well I did 2 nights in a row with my cover band Sylence. It has been a while since I have done that and to my surprise I actually sang stronger the 2nd night. I remember when I would sing 28 days a month or at least 6 days in a row. We had 2 good nights and the crowds were good. I have to admit, my voice was tired the following day but I liked it. I would like to get my voice as strong as it used to be when I sang all the time.

7/10/05 - Well I went to the Queensryche / Judas Priest concert last night and I have to say that I haven't enjoyed a concert that much in a long time. I have known Rob for about 20 years and probably seen him sing a least 30 something times and that's not including all the times he has got up on stage with me and sang old Priest songs. Rob has always been a big influence and I have nothing but total respect for the man. I have to honestly say that I stood in the crowd in just complete amazement and awe! I'm not kidding I had goose bumps. Rob came on stage and just killed it. I was like a little kid again, I felt like I did when I used to go to concerts in High School (some of you might remember how that felt) I have been in this business for a long time and I know how hard is to sing in the higher octives as we get older (no offense Rob but none of us are getting any younger) Well Rob didn't seem to miss a beat. He was unbelievable and to add to the mix, he did it here in Phoenix, at a outside venue, in the middle of July in sweltering temperatures with at least 15 pounds of leather on. Rob if you stumble across this, I know we haven't spoken in several years but I want to thank you for all of good advice you have gave to me and for being a good friend through some of my difficult times.

6/27/05 - Flew back from Baltimore/Washington after attending my little sisters wedding. It's hard to believe she is all grown up. The wedding was outside at 3:00 in the afternoon and it was frecking hot. My good friend and bandmate Jon Drenning flew up from Florida to hang with me for a few days...I think he really comes up to see my Dad because my father worked at NASA as a Rocket Scientist for close to 35 years, Jon calls my Dad Rocket Man. I try and go and see my father as often as I can, he has had at least 3 strokes that we know of and the worst one happened right in front of me...I thought I was going to lose him right there. The Craziest thing happen while in Va. Ravi Jahkotia who played drums with Crimson Glory and Erotic Liquid Culture called me and said hey David I am in Phoenix doing a gig come out and see me and I told him that I was in Va. and we didn't say much about it after that. Since there was so many people staying at my folk's house for the wedding, Jon & I decided to get a room. When checking in Jon noticed a flyer that advertised a car show. Jon looked at it real close and noticed a tiny picture of Ravi on it. I just figured that someone double booked him and he didn't know anything about it. I called Ravi and asked him why his pic is on the flyer and he said that he was flying in on Saturday and playing that night. I said to Ravi, "do you know where Jon and I are?" we are in Chantilly, Va. and staying at the Holiday Inn Select and he couldn't believe it. Ravi was booked at the same hotel on the same night. It was cosmic, I mean Jon and Ravi haven't seen each other in years and soon we were all going to be hanging out together. Understand this, what are the chances of this happening. It's not like we are running into each other in LA, Miami, New York but in Chantilly, Va.!!!! Ravi and Jon had some differences to work out and they did, I guess it was meant to be. I know that it might not sound like a big deal to most but for me having Jon and Ravi talking again meant alot.

6/19/05 - Sylence played last night at O'Kelly's, The first set was ok, I again had problems with my monitors and really couldn't hear that well. As long as I have been doing this, you would think I would hold back and not try to sing so hard to hear myself but I want to make sure that I am hitting the notes thus I start to wear out my voice faster. The monitor situation got worked out and we ended up having a pretty good night. We are starting to draw more and more people and I like the music that I get to sing. I am still working with Danny & John and the boys. They have been spending alot of time setting up the room for rehearsing and recording purposes. John is a really good producer in his own right.

6/10/05 - Well I went to the Crystal Method show and I was right it was a long night. The venue was packed and the place was jumping. The Crystal Method guys have to be the best at what they do, I like that type of music alot but for some reason they just know how to hit it better than most. Ken took care of my friends and I, we had a great time.

6/9/05 - Tonight was the firtst night since I started working the John and the boys that we were able to really bang it out at full volume and work on songs. It went well, we all have alot of idea's and some good one's came together quickly...that's a good sign that we are able to write together. We worked until late in the night, close to 3 am, I got a feeling that is how it is going to be in the future as well. Going to see my friend Ken Jordan from "The Crystal Method" tomorrow night, I love they're stuff! Ken called a few days ago and invited me to the show...I think it is going to be a long night!

6/5/05 - Well the show at the Blooze Bar went well, I was really concerned about the volume situation there but everything went well except our soundman showed up 30 minutes late but the club owner was very cool about it and we had a good show. I had a better show singing this week. The more we play...the stronger I am getting, I remember playing 6 nights a week in a different city every night. I would like to do that again but it would have to be under the right conditions. The van days are over for me, I did that route for years with Mannekin until we were able to afford the ole' tour bus.

6/4/05 - I got another gig tonight with Sylence at a club called Blooze Bar and to be honest, I am not feeling well today but who knows I might feel better later. We have never played there before and I guess volume is a problem there. I hope we don't have a problem because we are loud. I hate that crap when you own a rock bar and complain about how loud the band is, you shouldn't have bands if that is the case!

6/3/05 - Worked with Aquilino a little bit in the studio to try and get a work demo to sound good for writing purposes. It sounds pretty good.

5/29/25 - The show at O'kelly's went ok, I have had better nights singing. It was memorial day weekend and so we were not expecting a big crowd but from what I understand, the club owner was very happy with the amount of people we pulled in

5/26/04 - Rehearsed with my cover band Sylence, we are playing on Saturday at O'Kelly's. After that I went to a meeting with John Aquilino and Danny Wexler (former guitar players of the band Icon about possibly writing and recording songs together...it went well.